A Diary of Fitsuriaci

Saya mendapat ide untuk menulis postingan ini setelah membaca tulisan lama saya berjudul " Balada Setelah Sarjana ". Sepertinya memang kali ini saya menghadapi masalah yang hampir sama, "kata orang" a.k.a doktrin mainstream. Well, sebelum saya bahas satu persatu, saya ingin menceritakan keadaan saya sekarang menjawab pertanyaan di postingan yang saya sebutkan di atas.  Saya telah berhasil keluar dari "lingkaran setan doktrin publik" dan sukses memperjuangkan passion saya. Now, I got the master degree. Kelihatannya mulus, tapi jika dirunut lagi, ternyata nggak gampang, saya harus melewati bermacam cobaan dalam waktu yang tidak singkat, tapi ketika dapat, itu nikmat! Setelah dapat gelar master, apakah hidup saya terbebas dari drama? Sejenak iya, tapi begitu saya menginjakkan kaki di Tanah Air, season 2 langsung tayang membuat saya benar-benar merasakan reverse culture shock sampai hampir gila kalau saya tak punya agama. Yang saya percaya: 1...

I marked today as a new phase in my work life. I cannot say what it is now but it is really interesting for me, both the job and the next story. I am curious what it will be in the near future and how it will change my life. Today, I had a private meeting. Never did I imagine this thing will come in my earlier stage here. But, it just happened. I know, God is showing me something. Well, I already got a surprise in the beginning of the year. Although I cannot say much, I want to highlight few things here: 1. We never know exactly who observe us in workplace. Who really pay attention about our work, who just pretend to care, who put an eye on our weaknesses. So, just be us, give our best efforts. Don't fake anything. You never know where your attitude brings you. 2. Some people can be so mean to you even they don't realise they do. They also can be nice at the same time. In this condition, know your exact position, what you want, what you deserve. Forgive but don't for...

Have I told you about rain on this blog? I don't remember well but even if I did, I wanna write another story here. People say that rain can trigger special memory and everyone owns different memories. So do I. A pouring rain has a magical power towards me; a random piece of old stories unexpectedly dances on my mind which brings me either joyful or miserable time in life. Furthermore, I love rain whatever it brings nowadays. Because I believe God sends rain with blessings to Earth, to us. Since it's full of blessings, then it's a good time to pray, to harvest the blessings. I love praying to God about a thing that occupies my mind a lot since last year. I repeat the same prayer almost every single day 'til that spesific prayer comes out of my mouth easily whenever I pray or I forget what other things I should pray, the prayer keeps spinning on my tongue to be repeated again and again. Daebak! Rain is a chance. Rain is magic. Rain is another happiness. Rain is...

Having been watching a Korean drama named Legend of the Blue Sea, I am so influenced by the story of a mermaid on the drama. Being a mermaid, we can erase the memory of a human, we also can have a great power, and what I like the most is we can speak in our own language and certain people can hear our minds without having to say it out loud. If I can choose between having ability to hear one's mind and my mind is being heard by someone, I will choose the last one. Listening to someone's mind is annoying even we are able to know his secrets. To me, knowing one's secret is another kind of responsibility. We have to be careful not to tell it to other people, and it is like a burdensome thing to me. In other hand, to be heard, is something good. At least, someone can know how our feelings, know how much we mean our acts. We do not have to explain our sincerity by saying it literally. Yet, there is no such powered human-like mermaid with those abilities in this world. I ...